sigh… just another day huh?? does anything ever change in this world??
the sun isnt shining, and tears fall from the sky, yet… my body doesnt even seem to shiver at the touch of coolness from the raindrops… i glanced down at my hands, flexing my fingers as if somehow it would trigger the fact that im soaking wet dressed in a mere tee and shorts… hoping… that i could feel the cold sensations of the rain… everyone around me is either tightening their coats, opening their umbrellas, or running to search for shelter from the icy weather… but i was as warm as anyone would be on a summer day…
will MY world ever change??
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"am….. ammmber… amber.. AM…?? AMBER!!" came the shouted syllable that was my name from a person who’s voice i have yet to identify…
"Hello…" i countered. It’s lunch break and i usually spend it sitting at the back of the cafeteria staring out the window into the sky… And as a result my lunch box was - as always - left untouched…
"Heeyyy… Watsup with you these days huh? Always up in the clouds…" the voice queried. I wonder what she means by ‘these days’? Aren’t i always like this? However ‘this’ was meant to be. Even i don’t know how i’m always like…
"There’s nothing here on the ground, the soil bears me no interest at all… So the clouds are always where i turn to for a little bit of joy… Or at least some form of self-enjoyment…" came my half-hearted reply… I readjusted my slumping posture and turned to face the person who had struck me with this conversation.
"Oh… Hey, Mamoru-chan… Howzit goin?" i asked.
"Howzit goin? Howzit…. GOIN??!! Urghh!! You’re really out of it these days… really!" she sighed - heavily. It’s just like Mamo-chan to over-exaggerate on petty stuff like this… "Forget it. You’re not gonna be paying much attention to what i’m gonna say to you anyways… Later! I’ll see you after school," she said picking up her back pack and started walking away but paused for a moment turning back to me, "or not… Kohaku-chan if you’re not gonna be seeing me after school, you better let me know now…"
"I will, i will…" Sheesh… Everyone’s always so worked up about stuff… Can’t they just chill? I turned back my gaze to the skies and reassumed my slumping posture… As Mamo-chan’s footsteps faded and dissapeared, i thought to myself maybe i am a little bit more hazy than usual… I wonder why? I wonder why, for a person who can’t seem to experience cold is always so chill…
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Walking towards the front gate i suddenly felt some sort of presence… Like something is there but you don’t exactly know what it is… Whatever i felt, it was there. It just wasn’t distinct enough for me to care about it… Nothing was ever distinct enough for me to care about.
"Amber..!!! Hurry~!!" Mamo-chan greeted me in a sing-song voice from afar. Funny how she only calls me Kohaku-chan when she’s being serious… *chuckle* We took our usual route back home. That is we usually pass by the park, and a few shops on the way.
And there it was again. That presence. This time it was stronger. Strong enough for me to actually know what it is. Flames. Fire. I sense the presence of heat.
"Mamo-chan…." I started.
"Hmm? What is it?" She asked and started to turn to me but soon realized that i was no longer by her side but running in the opposite direction to the housing area nearby. "Huh? Ei..!!! Amber…?? H-Hey, where’re you going??!!! OOOOIII!!!" she screamed as she herself started to pick up her pace to chase after me.
No one else would have noticed this… it’s impossible!! It’s too far away and yet i know it. I know something is burning greatly. I was too deep in my thoughts that i was completely tuning out any other sights and sounds except for the sense of that presence and my own thoughts.
And when my legs lead me to turn my fourth corner it was confirmed. A house was burning down!! And this time not only did i sense the heat of the flames licking up every bit of existence of that single house but i felt the heat of something else too. It was random. The heat of it was randomly increasing and decreasing. No. More like it was pulsating. A pulse? A beating heart? Oh crap. Oh mother of all crap… Oh FRICKIN CRAP!!! Someone’s in there!!!
Finally realising that one single fact i practically flew in through what remained of the house’s front door and went to that pulse. To that one beating heart that - i sensed - was starting to fade away. CRAAPP!!! Where are you?! Don’t you dare dwindle up on me! Keep beating damned heart! Stronger so i can find you!!
"Can you here me??!!! Heeyy!!! I know you’re in here!!" C’mon… C’MON!!! There. At the back of the house. That pulse. I’m close. As i got closer and closer to that heart-beat i also felt that it started to beat slower and slower. Hang in there… Just a little longer. I finally got to the pulse to find a little girl curled up under a flaming table. Swiftly as if i have done it before - although i haven’t - i picked her up and held her in my arms to get her and myself the HECK outta there!!
As there was no way to get out through the back door cuz it was already blocked by the fallen pieces of the ceiling, i had no other choice but to get back out through the front. I dodged a few other falling pieces of the house and finally i came out through the front door of the burning house. I came out and immediately saw the parents of this child. Crying, yes. But somehow there weren’t any cries of gratitude for their safe child that i would obviously expect. I guess life really isn’t like the movies, huh?
Then Mamo-chan stepped towards me. With caution? WTF? Hello!! I’m A HERO!! Don’t i get at least a thanks or something? Even the parents aren’t moving forward to come take their kid. Come to think of it, everyone was practically silent. Even the fire department was somehow not paying full attention to the flames of the house. Rather they were doin their jobs of dousing the flames distractedly. Annoyingly glancing at me every two-friggin-seconds.
"Kohaku-chan…." Mamo started. "What the hell is it? Spit it out." I countered with a look of annoyance while still holding the now passed out kid in my arms.
"You’re on fire," she said finally seemingly mustering enough courage or whatever to say that to me. Then, i guess i suddenly realised after all that adrenaline action back in the house that im supposed to feel hot. Like really hot. It was a frickin burning house for God’s sake. I’m supposed to be covered with second degree burns or whatever. Shit, SHIT!! I’M ON FIRE!!
I AM IN FLAMES!!! MY WHOLE BODY IS IN FLAMES AND I DON’T FEEL IT…!!! W-WH-WHAAATTT??!!!
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~OWARI~
Author’s note: That was the prologue for my new story or novel… whatever ya call it… Haha… I’ll be posting info bout this one in another blog, so go there if y’all wanna know more about it… (Don’t worry… It’s still gonna be in Friendster. Just under a different blog…) So? How is it? Should i continue or is it just a waste of my time??
